Disconnected??

I read Tori's post which made me feel like I wasn't out in no mans land. I have been feeling very dissconnected lately. Partly is my fault because I don't want to be around people and I don't want to let people see my hurt and my junk. I am allowing the Lord to plow up the ground and it's not pretty in the begining. I guess I just feel at times lost or on the outside. I know that it's not that way it just feels like it. I guess we all have wilderness times and times of feeling no engaged in what is going on around us. I guess partly I just wanted to check in and make sure that is what is happening. I want to make sure I am not leaving myself out in the open alone. I have been putting on my armor everyday and as things come up I pray for you all. So in that I know I am still connected. Just not feeling it at the moment.