Sweet Spot

Many things that used to make me feel so close to the Lord don't "work" as of late. It's been frustrating, particularly because I've experienced depths of intimacy that I never before knew existed. It would seem that I've lost my way and have become desperate to find my way back again. Last night, during the last 2 hours of the 24 hour worship and prayer @ NH I found myself, early on, trying to find my groove. After doing a bit of wandering around in the sanctuary I found a spot to park for a short while. I then felt prompted to make my way back to Jeff. As soon as I sat down the Lord began to speak to me about surrendering again. I wrote a note about what I am surrendering-things that I think I know about Jesus, things that I expect my relationship with Him to look like, expectations for my experiences with Him to be as they used to be and to find them in the ways I used to find them. I also wrote about the things I'm laying down this season, mostly in order to stay closely in touch with them. I laid the note at the cross and left it there. I went back to Jeff and began to feel the Lord's presence. It was precious to me. Then there was sort of a break in the songs, and an invitation was given to come to the front for prayer, for breaking through. I sensed the Lord begin to prompt me to go forward with Jeff but just as I got ready to ask him, the Lord told me to remain silent, to wait, to let Jeff lead out in this. I submitted to the Lord, and to Jeff. I prayed that Jeff would hear His voice. As I waited, the Lord's presence thickened. It became completely physically overwhelming and I just sobbed...for the rest of the evening. We never went to the front but the Lord met me in a way I have been desiring and desperate for, but He met me in a new place, with my husband, "the sweet spot." This has brought such affirmation about what my focus is to be about and the changes I need to make in my life durning this season of transition.

Surrendering, submission and obedience have opened the door to new things, to blessing. What is happening with my husband is his story to tell, but I can say that he is in for the ride of his life and will never be the same again-HA! And that impacts me-loving the ride already!!